Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Invincible ~ MUSE

Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright
'Cause there's no one like you in the universe

Don't be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

Do it on your own
It makes no difference to me
What you leave behind
What you choose to be
And whatever they say
Your souls unbreakable

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
Please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

true that!

i called you
but you're never there
i loved you
but you didn't care
When i left you
you came after,
saying that there's no one other

its not easy for me
to open up and let you in
but deep inside i know that
you will love me on matter what

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

JUST DONT GIVE UP ON ME - i wont let u down

after repatching my relation with afiq......
i thought that everyth will b da same.....
but i guess i was wrong......
there are many things or people that wishes someones relationship tp fail....
that day, i went out for lunch with afiq, but we got into a small debate about someth stupid come to think about it, anyway...... i left cause i didnt want it to end up to a big deal,,,,,
so i went back; well not with afiq. at that time my friend who happen to be a dude, was nearby meaning at the same shopping centre. i called him and asked if he could send me home. and so he did. Afiq didnt know this at the time..... later that nite i told bout my friend who sent me home.....
which really means nothing significant to me.... but afiq felt that i have betrayed his trust.
i dont blame him for getting mad, but i just think...... well i dont know what to think.
i wish i hadnt don wat i did, but past is in the past;
i feel bad, and even though i know that he feels sad about it, he puts up a smile to mask it....
that makes it harder for me to bear.......
i'm sorry syg...... i didnt mean to hurt you.....
but through his eyes i'm still clean cut and refine......

Thursday, April 1, 2010

what to do?

lets say that i have found my chuck bass and i am Blair....
so when all this time the guy that you have willingly avoid turns out to be the one to steal ur heart... and u feel like everything is going to be fine..... and u hope that there is nothing wrong will come close between you and him..
but what if a third person come into the picture.....
and this third person is a close friend for a long time..... and that this third person has invited me to have lunch with him???
well the problem is.... whether i tell my chuck or not?????
i'd would bring him along to the lunch, but then there will be a battle of men's ego flying across the table.... and i dont think i can handle that kind of drama.........

now how do we know that we have found the right person?
well, you dont..... i know that im not suppose to say that.... especially im in the midst of mending my own relationship....
but somethings we get together just because its easier that way... to finally call ur other half.
sometimes i wonder if the one you have in ur heart is the one that will be with you until the end????

i admit that i am not as angelic as i want to be..... meaning that i have been on dates while with 'chuck'.... but in the end i end up telling him and that its just an action out of fear....
my fear of getting close to someone......
but lately i wonder that what if i told that one person.... that one person that i had a crush on for sometime...... what if it wasnt fear? what if thats the real deal????
'chuck' is everything i'm looking for in a guy, but why do i feel that he's not the one???

is this a reasoning im telling myself so i dont get close too someone..??????
yes! i'm afraid to get close to person..... close to my heart. to someone that i can surrender to.
why is this so hard????
all i hope that i find the one person we all hope to find in our life.....
and that no one gets hurt along the way.....

ah..........give me a sign!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

saya sayang bf saya!

2 roommates and myself are currently in a relationship.....
but being in a relationship is not easy.....
those who assume, wont know the challenges and drama that we have to go through
anyways.... these three people always face the same guy problems.....
that no matter how much we care for our partner, there's always a third person that shatter the the placid life and causes a ripple.....
but who's to blame for this messy situation?
well in my experience, there's no one to blame
its human nature that a man is physically attracted to a women and visa versa
but the deal is that, a friendly encounter is not wrong but the other person that we care deeply for will get hurt. now it that something you want to risk?
I've seen my friends go out with guys that is not their beloved, but they still go hearts filled with guilt... now that's not rational at all......
my bf went to aussie for two weeks for his best friend's wedding....
but despite our two years separation, it not that easy to forget someone that you have given your heart to.....
one roommate found new love, the other enjoys the years of her relationship, and myself; mending the one that i have willingly lost and found again.....
this post maybe cheesy and overrated but i think a reminder to ourselves once in a while reminds us what a good thing we have and dont let anyone tell you otherwise.....

ramdom.....gile

People are so phony
Nosy coz they're lonely
Aren't you sick of the same thing?
They say so and so was dating
Love you or they're hatin
When it doesn't matter anyway
Coz we're here tonight

the debate mates....

here in KBM..... i must say the moments that i've enjoyed most would be the times with my debate mates. different forms of myself with their own history and experience. even though our debate team is small, but i prefer it that way.... its like the family we need to support us through all the good and bad times we face on campus. We have the computer wizz, the photographer, the kid, MPP, the leader, the player, the nasyid, the silent and the loud.... a rojak of kids that can get along.... well some of us anyways..... i dont know yet how much i can commit to the team, but i know that i have commit myself to the people.... and even though that all this was not part of my life's plans. but i'm glad it has happen anyways........ so cheers to you KBM debaters......